I was at work when I read the Facebook
status of my classmate way back in high school. He shared how the lives
of his friends have changed, how some are already married with kids,
some have gone abroad, while most are now living a glamorous life. He,
on the other hand, is still going on a crisis of being financially
unstable and of having no friends in his new environment, he said.
Days before today weren’t my happiest
days. Truth is, I share a mutual feeling with my classmate. Sometimes
when I look around, I feel like I got left out. Others are now on the
peak of their careers and they seem to have figured life out. I am also
on a crisis now: figuring what I want, where I want to be, who I want to
be. I can say my life has changed for the better somehow, but I know
this isn’t what I am looking for, this isn’t the kind of life that will
satisfy my soul.
Every now and then, I ask God what His
plans are for me because I seem so lost. But I live by faith that He is
in control, His timing is perfect and that His plans are better than
mine. My only prayer now is that He will use my life to touch the hearts
of others and I hope that I can be a disciple to the people I encounter
with everyday.
Before finishing my shift, I spared a few minutes reading one of my favorite blogs: David Bonifacio’s.
His write-up on “The beauty of a broken heart” inspired me to make
this blog. I also keep a notebook which holds the events of my life,
both painful and happy. Most of my entries these days are unfortunately
sad and bitter. I described how the pain felt, how it crushed my heart,
how it is taking a hold of me. But I never got the perspective of
writing to be able to show others how God has worked in my life and how
God will heal my wounds. So here I am staring a new blog, hoping I could
share even just a glimpse of how great our God is.
I do not know what the future holds,
where I’d be a few years from now. But one thing that I’m certain about
is that for better or for worse, God will be with me, He will help me
every step of the way. And because I am blindfolded with the things
which are about to happen, I will be able to appreciate the surprises
that God will give me.
I lift everything to Him for He knows best. He is my Father, I am a child of God.
I’ll end this entry with a part of a song that my church made which I love oh so dearly. Hear goes…
“I let go of my life and take a hold of You. I let go of myself so I may follow You. Lord make use of this life for it belongs to You. May my life be a worship unto You…”
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